Slow

My computer caved in on me a month or so ago. And with living a highly digitalized life both in profession and in practice, I've been left with a slower pace of things. This hasn't all become clear until recently when my wife and I settled into our new place post wedding craziness.  

I am a dependent on electronics, but I'm also finding how dependent I've become on viewing life as a series of "if/then"statements.  

If I had a computer, then I'd be busy with work all the time.  

If I would've gotten a degree in teaching, then I'd have a practical career right now. 

If I do good, I receive something in return.  

The reality of an if/then statement is largely based on the then. Which in turn means you are living in a hypothetically constructed reality as opposed to the one you are breathing in with every second.  

If I stop and see what is right here, then I move forward. Steadily. Minute by minute. Day by day. To the points of progress that reveal themselves.